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Feelin good!

- did the 500 crunches that I wanted to
- showed improvement in all of the weights I was lifting
- 45s on the bench
- 100 on lats, butterfly
- 25 on bis, tris
- did about 2 miles walking
- ate a chicken caesar salad with a turkey sandwich today (wanted to eat breakfast, no time)

and, to make it better, feelin more organized, and got some adrenaline right now.

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Is it possible?

Well, this is going to be another Gary-downer post. While in the shower I've realized that for the past month, nothing's changed. I'm no closer to my weight goal, the CD has not progressed any further, and I'm just more tired than usual. How can it be possible that I've wasted an entire month?

Yes, I do feel better in shape, but I still weigh the same. My body is still the same.

The diet is going to be running full steam ahead tomorrow, but I'm feeling like that's all I am, full of steam.

I'm going to keep trying things until they work. Whatever it is, I'm going to keep trying.

• I heard once that Usher (haven't heard of him in awhile) did 1000 sit-ups/crunches a day. 1000! I feel like that would take me two weeks to do a 1000.
• I heard that holding in your stomach and holding for a little bit, is the same thing as a sit-up.
• I'm combining the two. I'm going to see if I can do (I'm setting the goal a lot lower b/c I'm not Usher) 500 sit-ups/crunches/holding in my tummy for one day. If I can do it one day, I'm certainly going to keep going. I'm always interested in a challenge. This one might, again, be too lofty. Oh well, I'll let you know how it goes.

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Crunch Count
9:00am - woke up
10:00am - 300 crunches
2:40pm - 500 crunches total
(these pseudo-crunches I'm doing aren't as strenuous as regular crunches, but I'm starting to feel it).

not hungry

After racquectball today (which i thought the frist game went well, but everything else was jsut ok) i went to Jamba Juice and got a medium sized Light drink. I dunno how many calories or what but light is better than a reg. one. For lunch at 3:20 I had a full turkey sandwich from wolfgang and a liter of water. before class i refilled my bottle and drank most of it during class. today i haven't been really hungry throughout the day but we still have a couple hours to go. i think tonight i will try to eat a "light" dinner. have fun tonight guys :)

Tired

Blah. Today's the first time I've fallen asleep in class this school year. By the time Thursdays come around it's difficult because we've already worked out 3 days, plus we've got Wednesday night cardio/weight lifting, and a couple hours later we've got racquetball. Anyway, my diet started today.

• had a turkey sandwich, small caesar salad
• hopefully something healthy and small =0)

It's funny b/c I was talking w/Adam about how I would leave my house feeling slimmer, but see myself as the same size (biggie) later on during the day. He said it's b/c we're taller in the morning b/c we stretch out when we sleep, and during the day gravity weighs us down. Hmm!

Weekend's almost here, thank goodness. Finally gonna have some more time to work on the CD.

Ends

It's been awhile b/c I was gone on a retreat this weekend. While it was refreshing to get away from the stress and struggles of everything at USC, I still find I'm battling with my weight.

I'm finding different meanings in the phrase "question yourself". I usually question myself in what I see as a constructive manner, critically for the sake of improvement. Lately, I've been second-guessing myself, unsure of how I'm acting in some superficial situations.
My self-consciousness has reached new highs.

I'm at the ends of this. It's time to move to another stage. I'm too impatient to wait for results of having worked out everyday (three weeks in now).

Starting tomorrow:

• smaller portions, different foods, a more food-conscious self
  


• more efficiency, better organization, a more productive lifestyle
  


• pushing the limits of creativity, accumulating knowledge, a well-read, unique perspective
  

A golden day. I need a brand new start. (ironically from the song Start)

An Integrated Life

As I've reached the 10th day of the new workout regimen, I've discovered two things:

1. It is difficult to not complain. I'm constantly talking about how tired/sore I am to my two partners, and they're polite enough to tolerate it. I want to move past the whining and just do it. It probably furthers my exhaustion too when I claim that I'm tired (b/c I'm used to being that) when I'm not necessarily.


• The irony - I'm complaining about how much I complain.


2. It is difficult to not let this consume my life. Other than trying to find a post-graduation job, all I think about is the exercise. I tell practically everyone I see about the new workout plan. That's stupid because I'm not doing it for them, so I'm not interested in having expectations drawn for me.
   
   • Nevertheless, it is a big deal for me because I've never worked out consistently like this. It's something I'm really excited about. But when this workout routine becomes normal, then I will have a better grasp on things.

What's frightening to me is this blanket of apathy I'm surrounding myself with. I've considered apathy to be a huge problem. I don't understand how you could just not care about something. Maybe it's not apathy, it's a mix of boredom and numbness.

Weight

• I'm 281 on the dot today.
  

Tuesday

• Food - I ate a herb sausage calzone with a side caesar salad and macaroni and cheese. I had a margarita later at the Justin concert (<---amazing).


• Exercise - I played an hour and a half of racquetball.

Wednesday

• Food - I ate a calzone (sausage, hash brown, eggs, tomatoes, cheese) and an express meal (two sausages, two eggs, 2 pieces of wheat toast, hashbrowns) all for breakfast. For dinner, I ate my fried rice again.


• Exercise - 10 minutes of stairmaster (worst machine created ever. I wanted to die even though I only did 10 minutes), 15 minutes of bike.

Thursday

• Food - I ate a spam/egg sandwich this morning. Yum! I might eat the same thing tonight!
  
• Exercise - hour and a half of racquetball this morning. Really fun except I got hit the hardest I've ever been hit in the head. Played ok though. Scores were something like: (A-P-G) 15-7-2, 15-10-7, 15-12-9 (we were stuck at 0-0-0, 2-2-2, 4-4-4 on the last game).
  

Catch-Up

Gotta catch up with all the posts.

Weight

• Has been fluctuating a lot, i'm right around 282-3 right now.

Saturday

• hour and a half of tennis in the morning
• Wendy's breakfast - chicken sandwich, 5 chicken nuggets
• McDonald's lunch - chicken sandwich, french fries
• CPK dinner - spinach/artichoke dip w/chips, 3 pieces of bread w/butter, sausage pizza
• probably the healthiest day of eating in the history of diets

Sunday

• REST DAY!!!
• breakfast - plate of my home-cooked fried rice w/eggs, hot dogs, rice
• dinner - ramen

Monday

• minor lifting of weights
• late lunch - meatball sandwich w/french fries from bistango
• dinner - panda express - half fried rice/half chow mein, orange chicken, black pepper chicken, crispy noodles

Blah, not feeling great, but some good things are:

• Justin Timberlake concert tonight!
• Not feeling sore anymore.
• Obama looks like he's running, here's to hoping for a job.